I'm looking for that thing. You know THAT THING. The one that will fix everything? You know what I'm talking about? When I wanted to quit smoking I couldn't find that thing. I needed something that would make me really want to quit. I never did find it until I was pregnant with Elliet. Suddenly I had the thing and it was almost easy to quit. Then I needed the thing that would make me exercise. I got a DVD, I joined the Y, I asked them to show me around the nautilus facility, I started going to classes with a friend. But the thing turned out to be a weekly session with a trainer. Now I work out 6 days a week. Spinning, weight training, hiking with the kids, water aerobics and yoga. I love it all and I can't imagine quitting! I feel so strong already. Level one of the 30 Day Shred is a piece of cake and I even did one and two back-to-back last time for an extra challenge! But I haven't lost even an ounce of weight.
I cannot stop eating. It's terrible. It's embarassing. Like my friend Emily posted recently, I eat like the food is going somewhere. It's like there's a subconscious fear that I won't be able to eat this ever again. It is reminiscent of my final year of smoking. I knew I had to quit so every pack felt like the last even though it wasn't. My smoking increased to a pack and a half per day. That's 30 cigarettes every day. At least. For a year. At least.
This is probably very similar. I know I need to get my eating under control. I had a real scare with the diabetes during this last pregnancy. (You'd think THAT would be the thing, eh?) The doctors were certain I had developed Type 2 as opposed to it being just gestational but so far I am testing okay. So I know I have to "quit" and soon. I have to find that thing before a diagnosis of Type 2 IS that thing.
What thing are you looking for?
6 years ago