My friend Suzanne at List, Lust, Lost made a list recently, a sort of life list. Some people call it a bucket list. She had some little things, some bigger, things to learn, things to experience, places to go. I thought I would try this but I couldn't think of much. Then I did one of those surveys on Facebook and one question was "where would you visit if you had the chance?" and I said Alaska. No, really.
It was then that I realized I had stopped dreaming big. I have no idea what this means. Is it good? Is it part of learning how to be content where I am? I have felt very content lately, not wanting for much. An idea will come up and I think, "nah, I don't really need that" Or is it bad? Is it evidence I've contracted the sickness of mothers, the one where your dreams just don't matter anymore? I really don't know. I don't want to go through life always wanting for something. But I also don't want to go through life accomplishing nothing because I stopped trying.
So here's the list, I'll try and think big where I can:
SKILLS AND KNOWLEDGE
-Learn some basic Swahili - I just like it, it's a beautiful language
-Learn a craft, right now I'm leaning toward quilting. I have tried knitting a few times but I have tension issues, which is also why I didn't get anywhere with piano. I can't seem to make my hands and fingers do things gently.
-Learn enough Spanish to get by in a Spanish-speaking country for at least a few weeks
-Get enough medical training (probably RN) to do medical outreach here and abroad. This one is hard because I don't really want to be a nurse. Well, sometimes I do but usually I don't. But I want something important to offer the world.
These are harder, these are the ones that have me wondering how driven I really am to include them on the list. Part of this is just wondering if I will ever come to a point in life that the expense for these trips is justified or even available.
-Travel to Africa, not sure where yet. See the wildlife.
-Travel to Australia, see the outback (that's a thing right?) and the reef.
-Work in an orphanage in Romania for not longer than a month (unless Jt goes with me)
-Have a big dog
-Go to Burning Man at least one more time
-Keep chickens, just some laying hens. No more fretting over finding free range eggs.
-Switch to local, humane, clean meat
-Have one. That really is as far as I've gone with this one.
RELATIONSHIPS AND FAMILY
-Find my half-brother, whether he wants a relationship or not. I just want to know who he is.
-Complete an XTERRA race
-Finish Burning Man tattoo (not exactly a feat, I know)
If you want to make your own list, start here:
Raptitude.com: How to Make a Life List You’ll Actually Do: A Comprehensive Guide
6 years ago